Don’t forget about me

Don’t forget about me

I apologize to everyone about my absence lately I have been working in South Dakota for the past two weeks with hardly any service, but I will be back on the 4th!!

Hope you all are happy, healthy and safe ❤

Have a great week!

Just Write

Just Write

The urge to write grows stronger with each day that goes by. I want to write desperately, need to release. Confused by all the topics to write about, each left without a beginning. Starting is the hardest part for me.
No more.
I wished.
Part of the process of being a writer means embracing your disasters.
Right?
By disasters, I mean the stories with no meaning.
Missed punctuation or failed spelling unseen in the final edit, Regardless still a mess.
Who gives a F***!
Just write.
Get it out.
You’ll feel better.
You will be better!

Awkward is the vibe

Awkward is the vibe

Why is it awkward for me to write in front of people?
Why do I criticize myself and my writing before I even give myself the chance?
Am I the only person that is so eager to write their thoughts down, but talk myself out of doing it. I am aware I can be dramatic at times. Yet my emotions and feelings are still valid.
Desperately needing to release I turn to write; I write then erase, again and again until I’m stuck staring at a blank page with nothing to say
Is this normal in people? Of course, it is I can’t be alone in feeling your creative writing is awful. But for me, it’s the feeling I get for thinking about writing…
I feel so awkward when I have the desire to write. Feeling out of place and embarrassed obsessing about what people will think about me based on what I post. I love to write an to make blog posts and interact with fellow bloggers still, I continue to feel the need to enjoy my hobby in private, and far too uncomfortable to write in front of the ones closest to me.
Is that normal?
Why do I let myself get uninspired?
Why is my anxiety so terrible to me?

Coronavirus

I travel quite often for my job, so it was shocked when my job told me they would be sending people home due to the coronavirus. At first, I wasn’t concerned at all. People overreact about a lot of things others wouldn’t sweat. Working in Las Vegas, Nevada, people there started to panic going to every grocery store and buying every item off the shelves;
All the aisle down Walmart looked as if a tornado had plowed through the store
One night while my boyfriend was at work he witnessed cops swarm in and around Walmart looking for a man who was dressed in a Hazmat Suit spraying an “unknown,” substance all around the store eventually, the police did catch the guy who stated he was doing it for the attention. Everything in Las Vegas closed shortly after that…
Things aren’t any better once we arrived home in Reno, Nevada. Going to get groceries was a mission. You’d think with all the sick and disease and negative-going around people would be more cautious about things and people around them. I try to avoid the news with all negative they expose, but with so many people in a state of CRAZY in Nevada, it felt necessary. They recommend keeping 6 feet distances between you and others. Maintaining that is very difficult when going into Walmart and coming across people who will stop you in your tracks with their cart full, and kids hanging off an will literally cough in your face! The same people who buy 10 bundles of toilet paper in fear of what exactly? Getting sick? Being quarantined?
I don’t know but this shit is crazy!
Stay safe and stay clean!
Stay Home if at all possible until all this blows over. DO NOT GO TO WALMART!

Happy New Year!!

Happy New Year!!

As cliché as it is

I hope that this new year brings you so much joy

Happiness, positivity and overall just a good outcome of the year in general.

I hope that this year is the year that really brings out that you you’ve always wanted

Because you deserve it.

You deserve to be happy

To be ecstatic with life.

To be filled with nothing but happiness, love and peace.

This is your time to shine!

This year is about improving YOU!

Please, be patient

Please, be patient

Bright and beautiful mornings are my absolute favorite!
Waking up to his touch on my freshly shaved legs.
His warm skin against mine, I can’t help the smile across my lips.
I watch him sleep for hours so peacefully.
This beautiful man before me
He loves me to the moon and back.
I know that.
He is for me nobody else
I also know he is himself.
Things I can’t control
Just let them go!
He loves me
would never deceive me.
Forgotten kisses things left unsaid
Would be the only neglect I get.
Coffee is going while you are rolling.
Blunts and coffee a ritual for you and me in the morning.
Moutain’s in the distance
along with the sound of downtown Reno.
Proud of how far we have become
Why do I still feel so numb?
Overcome with a ton left to work on
One day I’m on the next not.
You don’t deserve that no one does.
Not even me.
I’m trying
Desperate to be content.
I want to be your heaven-sent.
I can be kind to you
You never were just the dirt on my shoe.
It wasn’t me, but I’m on a journey
To find who haunts my dreams.
The girl I know I can be
Please,
Be patient
Someday I’ll get it.