Happy New Year!!

Happy New Year!!

As cliché as it is

I hope that this new year brings you so much joy

Happiness, positivity and overall just a good outcome of the year in general.

I hope that this year is the year that really brings out that you you’ve always wanted

Because you deserve it.

You deserve to be happy

To be ecstatic with life.

To be filled with nothing but happiness, love and peace.

This is your time to shine!

This year is about improving YOU!

Please, be patient

Please, be patient

Bright and beautiful mornings are my absolute favorite!
Waking up to his touch on my freshly shaved legs.
His warm skin against mine, I can’t help the smile across my lips.
I watch him sleep for hours so peacefully.
This beautiful man before me
He loves me to the moon and back.
I know that.
He is for me nobody else
I also know he is himself.
Things I can’t control
Just let them go!
He loves me
would never deceive me.
Forgotten kisses things left unsaid
Would be the only neglect I get.
Coffee is going while you are rolling.
Blunts and coffee a ritual for you and me in the morning.
Moutain’s in the distance
along with the sound of downtown Reno.
Proud of how far we have become
Why do I still feel so numb?
Overcome with a ton left to work on
One day I’m on the next not.
You don’t deserve that no one does.
Not even me.
I’m trying
Desperate to be content.
I want to be your heaven-sent.
I can be kind to you
You never were just the dirt on my shoe.
It wasn’t me, but I’m on a journey
To find who haunts my dreams.
The girl I know I can be
Please,
Be patient
Someday I’ll get it.

Enjoy the skin you’re in because YOU ARE AWESOME

Enjoy the skin you’re in because YOU ARE AWESOME

You are one of a kind! Special in your own light.

Everyone shines just as bright. Each different never alike.

If he or anyone can’t see

Truly how extraordinary you can be

Set them free

Live life carefree

Happy as can be, peacefully

Confident and content

With the flesh the heavens sent

For you and me alone

Our body is our home.

Cold Fall Afternoon

Cold Fall Afternoon

Today the air is cold but its the kind of cold you dream of after a long hot summer. The relief of changing your wardrobe from shorts and tank tops to scarfs and long sleeves. Fall is my favorite time of year, mostly because of my birthday and the holidays but every year around this time I reflect on memories as a little girl; Every day after school I’d go out to the front yard of my parent’s house and play all by myself, id pretend I had powers and the “wind” blowing the loose leaves and branches around was indeed me, probably looking mental to the cars passing by filled with people confused at the sight they just saw; Decades later I lie here in awe of where that little girl has gone, so carefree she used to be.

Lost

Lost

constantly exhausted, feeling drained
Despite hours slept. It’ll never appear like you’ve had enough.
Is this depression?
Or am I mixed with day and night?
Lately, I’m not feeling myself a little lost inside.
Desperate to find my way back.
Overcome by where to start
Days go by I feel a slightly better
But does the bleeding eternally truly end?
Souls say “Time heals all wounds,”
I can’t say I agree with that.
Time goes by it’s more natural to cope
It will nevermore go away.
Years adding up nevertheless to forget
Learn to let go, help yourself grow.

Rollercoaster of Adulthood

Rollercoaster of Adulthood

Moving up in life is a terrifying thing most humans have to go through, even though for some people “adulting,” can tend to be more of a challenge, and stressful to overcome. What does being an adult mean? Does it mean maturity? What about the endless choices you’ll have to make along the way as we continue to grow in life? Was it the right choice? What if you had taken the other route? Would my life had turned out differently if I chose the opposite of what my heart desired.?
When we compare life to a rollercoaster, it’s common for your thoughts to go from negative to positive in almost an instant. For some people, it is a thrilling sensation in your stomach when the rollercoaster drops and the adrenaline kicks in, but as for others, they wouldn’t agree. It’s not unlikely that some people despise rollercoasters. It’s probably safe to say that those people don’t like change as well. New can be very scary for some people, an even too crippling to accept an move forward with; For me, I’ve learned that embracing the change helps to build character, moving on with my life leading up to now I have made countless decisions; both rewarding and defeating. None the less, those choices and changes I’ve come to accept have shaped me into the person I am today, an for that, I am immensely grateful for the ups and downs life has to offer. At the age of 22, I see an enormous difference in my way of thinking about the future compared to other peers my age. Still, being responsible and having the willingness to mature. (Some perks people don’t get until much, MUCH later in life, unfortunately.) Are crucial in surviving adulthood. Ultimately, if you’d like my advice, I would tell you to go for it! If you believe in yourself enough, you can dominate any challenge/rollercoaster life decides to throw at you. By occasion, if you happen to be unhappy with anything in your life, take it as a lesson learned and grow from your mistakes. Don’t be afraid of them. Learn from them.

My Positive Angels

My Positive Angels

Many things weighing heavily on my mind
overthinking truly is a curse,
negative thoughts flood in
the angels fighting desperately to stop the leaks.
Positive thoughts drowned just as quickly as they arose,
Falling deeper into the overflowing pool that is my mind.
Deeper and deeper now, no angels in sight.
No one can save you from yourself.
No one can save you.

Hi..

Hello, i am super nervous and not even sure how to “blog” but here goes nothing. My name is Brittany, but for my insecurities sake i am going to keep my face and most identifiers a secret. I am new to writing and possibly extremely terrible at it. If you’re here i apologize for the cringe you will likely experience as you follow on this journey with me.

All my life i admired people who lived a proper and organized lifestyle. In my eyes this means living in the most cliches way possible. For example, waking up in the mornings with the sun shining in your room. Making the room glow with a peaceful feeling as you stretch out of bed and slip your feet into your perfectly placed slippers that you set the night before in the exact spot your feet land every morning you step out of your silky smooth sheets. Then making my bed and placing all my 100 pillows back to their places on my bed even though only sleeping with one. Heading to the kitchen to make morning cup(s) of coffee that will always be a morning routine until the day i die an i’m sure many others can agree. And finally, grabbing my laptop and coffee, and heading to my desk thats perfectly angled with the enormous window that overlooks the mountains outside my home. Inspiring me to read, write, and just genuinely feeling content an at peace with myself and life. Blogging is apart of that day dream i continuously have had since i was a little girl. I have always dreamed about blogging but always thought it was silly or a waste of time, money, and effort knowing it wouldn’t go anywhere. Until i found myself with tons of free time between traveling for my job and no hobby to occupy my time or mind. Feeling very uneducated and unsatisfied with my current hobbies that included facebook, snapchat, instagram, etc. Maybe occasionally i’d crack open a book but i never read it through fully.

So if your here I really appreciate you! Bare with me as i figure out who i am and how i want my life to go..

-Brittany