Letter to myself

Letter to myself

You’ve been way to hard on yourself for a really long time.

We are already everything we want to be and more!

Just look at everything we’ve accomplished in the past few years!
You have made a beautiful, creative, fun life for yourself.

All you need to do now is enjoy it.

STOP with the overthinking, over analyzing.

You have nothing to be afraid of

You know how strong you are.

We can get through anything

and it will get rough at times.

Those things happen, and that’s okay.

Really.., It’ll be okay.

It might not feel like it’ll ever end.

But those thoughts you get aren’t always true

and the feelings you feel are temporary.

They will pass.

Please know that you are loved.

And please know you need to love you for who you are inside and out.

Nobody else can feel exactly what you feel.

Be the person you need for yourself.

Be gentle to yourself.

You are amazing! You know that.

You just need a reminder to water your flowers.

Easy way out..

Easy way out..

This can’t be from lack of sleep.

All I ever do is sleep!

I can’t enjoy a full day without getting sleepy and dozing off.

I used to think it was because I work the graveyard shift, have been for years now. 

If that’s not it

Could I be depressed? 

Aren’t we all if this is what it is?

I work so hard to fight this urge.

Urge to be mean, cold , bitter, more selfish than normal. 

I fight the urge to cut everyone off and run away back to my shell somewhere in the mountains.

What is going on with me? Why can’t I figure it out- Why do I always wish for the easy way out? 

Intrusive thoughts from a rough day.

xoxo
-Brittany❤️🌻

Self-Sabotage & Regret

Self-Sabotage & Regret

On a good day I enjoy life like a hippy.

I feel blessed with nature

the earth is trippy

animals are precious and innocent.

I wish I enjoyed life like this everyday

thankful for everything around me.

But things can’t be that simple for me

can they be?

I enjoy life but I also hate it.

I sit there wishing I could be doing this

Well, what if I tried that?

No!

You wouldn’t last.

Harassed by my past

My parents always told me

Don’t waste your time on dumb shit

And just like that

My day up and went

Self-Sabotage & Regret

A day wasted, I’ve spent

Countless years replaying the past

Overthinking is the forecast

Not anymore.

NOT ANYMORE!

White Noise

White Noise

I love the sound of the wind

struggling in the window as we drive down the highway.

Its loud, yes and some people might even think its annoying

but me, no

I think it’s calming, like white noise in the background

Like rain on a tin roof

rain in general

so soothing

like white noise

the smell is so calming.

The world is a beautiful place

I’m so sorry I couldn’t see it before..

I know

I know

It’s a new month

March..

I feel like nothings changed

Although I know that’s a lie.

I know I’ve made progress

And I won’t stop

This year I know

I’ll try harder than the last.

Xoxo

-Brittany🌻❤️

Blah

Blah

Lately I’ve been feeling blank.

Nobody’s home but

you can see a light is on.

Did you hear that!?

Endless days of war,

Tole to tole with head.

Good against evil

Today wasn’t good

Tomorrow will be better…

It wasn’t.

Art of Dreams

Art of Dreams

Good Morning!

Did you dream lastnight?

When we lay our heads down to rest for the night,

Does your mind take you to a place of tranquility?

Do you have nightmares? Visions so scary you may never want to sleep again.

Do you dream about lovers? Past an present both alike for only one thing in common. You

When the sun rises and the birds awake, do you remember your dreams? Do you wirte them down? Do you share with others your experience?

Why do we forget our dreams? How do we train our mind to remember them as they pass and onto the other?

A dream is entertainment for the relaxing mind. Remembering a dream gets more rare as i get older in life, but when i do remember i charish it as if it were my very last.

Goodbye Balloon

Goodbye Balloon

Yesterday something caught me eye and I couldn’t help but to write about it.

I live right across the street from a courthouse. I see all kinds of crazy’s walking by, angry people yelling, there’re are a few bars down the block, so usually the courthouse parking lot is free parking on the weekends. I see all kinds of characters, but yesterday was different.

I never seen a single person though I happened to turn to look out my window at the perfect moment.

Someone had released a balloon. 🎈
It was rainbow colored and shaped like a heart. It didn’t have any writing that I could see on it but I did notice something small like a little box was attached to the end of the balloons string.

My first thought was that something valuable could be in the small box attached to the string that is now swinging around like crazy due to the wild winds.

What if it was someone’s late Valentines gift? Now its gone with the wind.. literally.
How sad would that be?

My next thought though, painted a very sweet picture in my mind.

What if it was a same sex couple that just got married? 💟
Fresh bright glow of excitement over their faces. Family, friends came to celebrate outside of the court house with them, releasing a single ballon to symbolize their love and sharing it with the world, finally!
Attached was a small silver box with their written and scribbled vows.

Now I don’t know what exactly happened, and like I said earlier I never seen a single person after I watched the balloon sway away. Still, I sat there watching it and pictured so many scenarios that could be attached to this ballon.

I’ve always fascinated the different kind of feelings that are connected to releasing balloons in the air.

Some do it for the passing of a loved ones.

Others do it in a form of happiness, love, and hope.

Isn’t it weird?
No matter the reason behind it,
It’s a form of release.

A physical release that leaves you feeling refreshed and wholesome.

Anyways, just some things that go on inside my head. LUL
Hope you enjoy!

Have a GREAT day!

Xoxo
Brittany🌻❤️

Neon Sign

Neon Sign

I have many favorite colors,

its hard just to choose one isn’t it?

I love the colors of the mountains

when they meet with the sunrise, and sun fall.

I love the color of the ocean in Hawaii

Crystal clear you can see the sand at the bottom.

The reflection of the sky, white clouds soaring by

Where sky blue meets ocean blue.

I love the colors of a night sky

moon acting shy,

All the stars twinkling despite…

The city lights, beautiful by design.

No!

Nature can’t be compare to a neon sign.