Beautiful Flowers

Beautiful Flowers

Flowers fragile and beautiful.
What comes to your mind when you think about a flower?
Is it love, loss, strength, positivity?

There are so many flowers in this world and like people.
They are all unique in there own way.

Flowers seem so fragile
on the outside
but on the inside
They stay stable during the harshest of weather.
Through wind, rain
Flowers remain
Calling the sun by name
Stretching, glowing
Even better now
After the weather

I like to see myself as a flower. Rare strong, beautiful, able to make it through whatever.
We all are,
Beautiful flowers

I actually took this picture^

I am Full of Gratitude

I am Full of Gratitude

Today I woke up to the soothing feeling of my air conditioner, next to my love, I am full of gratitude.
I made my bed mindfully, something I learned from reading.
A book that has opened my eyes, on how to be mindful, minus all the lies
For that, I am full of gratitude.
I sat down, relaxed, I am blessed, truly feel blessed.
I imagine what happiness looks like
my mind paints a picture.
Wildflowers, lilies, roses
Miles and miles,
Sunflowers, tulips, daisies, colors all enraging.
No end in sight, no need to take flight
Happiness is home
a field full of flowers.
and because of that,
I am full of gratitude.

Find Yourself

Find Yourself

What does it mean to find yourself?
To find yourself means to find out the kind of person you are and what you want in life.
So what kind of person am I?
Because I know the person I want to be, and I know what I want in life, but what if the person I want to be isn’t the kind of person I am?
What if I’m lying to myself about being high and mighty when in reality I’m just another wannabe.
What does it mean to find yourself?
To find yourself means to pick a personality trait and mock it till you can rock it, Right?
What does it mean to find yourself?
“Reflect on your past, you’ll find yourself at last.”
They say with smiles that go for miles.
Still, I ask you.
What does it mean to find yourself?

Just Write

Just Write

The urge to write grows stronger with each day that goes by. I want to write desperately, need to release. Confused by all the topics to write about, each left without a beginning. Starting is the hardest part for me.
No more.
I wished.
Part of the process of being a writer means embracing your disasters.
Right?
By disasters, I mean the stories with no meaning.
Missed punctuation or failed spelling unseen in the final edit, Regardless still a mess.
Who gives a F***!
Just write.
Get it out.
You’ll feel better.
You will be better!

Blocked

Blocked

It’s been a while.. To long for my liking.

Bad days often; Good ones are rare.

Insecure, bitter and unfair.

Most popular motions in my ocean.

To uncomfortable to write, despite the future in sight.

Rather just hold it in real tight.

Thoughts flood.

Emotions spread.

I’d honestly rather be stuck in my head.

Constant what ifs, assuming that.

I couldn’t think of times Im relaxed.

Happy New Year!!

Happy New Year!!

As cliché as it is

I hope that this new year brings you so much joy

Happiness, positivity and overall just a good outcome of the year in general.

I hope that this year is the year that really brings out that you you’ve always wanted

Because you deserve it.

You deserve to be happy

To be ecstatic with life.

To be filled with nothing but happiness, love and peace.

This is your time to shine!

This year is about improving YOU!

Please, be patient

Please, be patient

Bright and beautiful mornings are my absolute favorite!
Waking up to his touch on my freshly shaved legs.
His warm skin against mine, I can’t help the smile across my lips.
I watch him sleep for hours so peacefully.
This beautiful man before me
He loves me to the moon and back.
I know that.
He is for me nobody else
I also know he is himself.
Things I can’t control
Just let them go!
He loves me
would never deceive me.
Forgotten kisses things left unsaid
Would be the only neglect I get.
Coffee is going while you are rolling.
Blunts and coffee a ritual for you and me in the morning.
Moutain’s in the distance
along with the sound of downtown Reno.
Proud of how far we have become
Why do I still feel so numb?
Overcome with a ton left to work on
One day I’m on the next not.
You don’t deserve that no one does.
Not even me.
I’m trying
Desperate to be content.
I want to be your heaven-sent.
I can be kind to you
You never were just the dirt on my shoe.
It wasn’t me, but I’m on a journey
To find who haunts my dreams.
The girl I know I can be
Please,
Be patient
Someday I’ll get it.